Update

It's been soo Long since I posted ANYTHING work related, I guess i have a reason somewhere around here, but am not sure what exactly is it? I don't know what I've been doing here lately, I am sure am doing stuff, but wouldn't know what exactly those stuff where if someone held a gun to my head, i hardly been readin any of my usual blogs, let alone commenting (which i have to admit is something i hardly done anywayz), hardly have time to see my facebook account, I've been checking my mail but that only takes me 5 min.
I've been thinking about writing a new post here for a long time, but i didn't i really don't know what's wrong with me, I started this blog so i document the changes i go through at the "new" job , now a year and half later i don't think there is much of a change apart that Madame M left and thing fell into order nothing is freaken changed, and I don't even know if i hate it or love it or what?
but anyways i don't want to rant maybe later i'll start a new blog called "a venting of an unsatisfied bored brat librarian" LOL, that sounded shorter in my head, anywayz, I am not sure I talked about Dr A & S, they are 2 sisters both doctors both in the same dep. I totally love ,it's mutual, a lot of people don't like them.
anywayz they gave me 2 pieces of info's
1- they hinted that Madame M was bad mouthing me to Dr. H the big boss complaining that i don't work, they said that someone did that to Dr. H all the time and that they changed his opinion and put a good word about me to him. I believe them because he said they did, i just checked an old post here and I actually mention that, maybe this blog is useful after all, anywayz again they didn't say Madame M but i had the imprission that it's probably her, but there is this sneaky feeling that it might be Madame H (the nice HR lady) maybe she isn't that nice after all. well if it was Madame M then she got what she deserves and what goes around comes around, and if she's Madame H , then no worries Dr A & S got my back LOL

2- they told me that they are doing a project with the WHO (World Health Organization) and that they added MY NAME to the team work, how cool is that, I mean a project done under the supervision of the WHO, and those ppl I know it will be gr8, InshAllah . and they said that i would got paid :).
still not sure what am gonna do, but i think it will involve online searching. anywayz they told me to keep my mouth shut for now, so this is what am doing .
WISH me Luck !

Maybe next post would be about people who are important with me at work (Like I planned that one to be)

الكتابة بالعربية

لقد حاولت مراراً الكتابة باللغة العربية و لكننى ببساطة فشلب ؟ لا أعلم لما فشلت ، لا أعلم حتى لماذا قررت أننى فشلت، هل هو فشلى التام فى أستيعاب النحو و قواعده أم لأنى عشت طويلاُ فى وهم موهبتى فى الكتابة باللغة الأنجليزية .

لا تهم الأسباب الأن بعدما قررت أ، أجرب ، أجرب التعبير بلغتى الأم شئ يدعو للضحك، لكنه ضحك أقرب للبكاء كيف علمونى أن أكتب الأنجليزية و دربونى أن أفكر بالأنجليزية لأكتب الأنجليزية الصحيحة .

لماذا لم يهتم أحد باللغة العربية ، هل لأنها اللغة الأم فسأجيدها يوماً ما ؟ أتمنى ، لكنى أعرف فى صميم قلبى أن السبب بكل بساطة أنها مثل كل ما هو عربى تم التنكر له و أول من تنكر له هم العرب. فاللغة العربية هى لغة الجاهلين، لغة الفقراء الذين لم يحن عليهم الزمن و يتخرجوا من مدارس لغات ، لست مثلهم عزيزتى أنتى مختلفة ، لا تتصرفى مثلهم عزيزتى أنهم بلدى ! و ما العيب فى ببلدى أسأل و لا أجاب ؟ فأسكت وأتحدث الأنجليزية و أفكر بالأنجليزية و أكتب بالأنجليزية و مع أصحابى نضحك على جهلنا الشديد باللغة العربية و لكنه ضحك يترك أثار مرارة فى قلبى ,. و الأن هأنا أكتب بالعربية و يالله أحس بالعربية أتمنى أن يدوم هذا و لكن يدرك قلبى أن ما هى ألا محاولة فاشلة للكتابة بالعربية

و لن تدوم أبداً لن تدوم